A couple of years ago I’ve decided that my journaling is never going to be negative. I had done years of morning pages and just couldn’t stand keeping those thoughts on paper or on my computer anymore.
I tore up the journals and shredded them, and tossed away the digital archives.
You won’t believe the relief I felt by doing that. It was immense.
Ever since I chose not to dwell on negative thoughts or on bad things that have happened to me.
One of the big reasons why is that I don’t want negative thoughts to linger on paper, I liken them to clouds. I want them to drift past and leave me in peace looking at the blue sky of my mind
I used to mull about things I had done or said, or not done, and keep those thoughts alive in my head.
I used to break myself down and constantly say negative shit about myself, and I am so done with that cycle.
This doesn’t mean I am living life as an airy-fairy sort of woman, but I have enough stuff to deal with on a daily basis that adding piles of negative thoughts to my life doesn’t help me heal. On the contrary, in fact.
So, what DO I journal about?
Well, I have my (almost) daily gratitude log, I write about accomplishments or new things I have discovered. I write about my creative adventures and about wonderful experiences. I write about things I have conquered in myself.
And sometimes I write nothing at all on paper for weeks, but just post pictures with a short description in my digital journal.
As long as it doesn’t make me feel like crap.
(Blogpost inspired by a conversation I had with a friend. She writes about it here)