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March 8, 2010

Bye bye buddy

My buddy let go of his weary body
He lay there, as if he were sleeping
With a small wad of hair sprinkled
Next to him as if it was confetti

My fingers played through his hair
And I said: bye, my sweet old friend
Thoughts of his antics when he was 
Still healthy played through my head

And there, on the cold floor, his body
Still warm beside me, curled up as if
He was sleeping, I could not stop the
Laughter from bubbling up inside me

Laughter at the dog who loved to be
In the water, but who always needed
A couple of minutes to adjust to the
Fact that he would get really wet

Bye bye, my clown, my confidant, 
My camping buddy, my gardening
Pal, farewell, my dear destroyer of
Balls, cotton socks and branches

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March 6, 2010

The sunset from here is breathtaking

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March 1, 2010

The mindful illness experiment, day 8

Sitting on the bed after a nice yoga session with a cup of tea next to me, and a peaceful smile on my face. 

Yesterday was a strenuous day for me. I haven't slept right for three days in a row now, and yesterday that took it's toll, as lots of emotions were stirred up, lots of fears, and it showed in my practice. It was the first day I didn't get to do asana, because it just didn't feel right. Of course that was because fear loves to keep a body frozen solid, and I didn't feel like fighting it anymore. 

Today it is different. Still a lack of energy, but I sat down on the mat, and went into the most beautiful and peaceful yoga practice since I fell ill. 

I can still feel the emotions stirring in my stomach, but they are easily breathed away. I feel calm and peaceful now, and I know that I will come through this illness in a way I have never come through one before. With energy to spare. 

Even though I had a setback yesterday, I feel like I have made twenty leaps forward today, and that is a wonderful new feeling for me. 

As for the asthma, I can breathe all the way to my stomach again, for the first time in over a week. Still not there yet, but I am not rushing my body into a fake sense of healing again. 

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March 1, 2010

I finally love me

When I stand in front of the mirror

and smile at my self, the lioness
inside me smiles back, shining
through my eyes, pure love

She roars now, deep inside and
shares her self unmitigated by 
the fears and emotions that used
to prevent the oneness I now feel

I am my true self now, a goddess
walking the earth with gentle steps
true love and compassion radiate
my soul's love towards the planet

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February 26, 2010

The mindful illness experiment, day 5

The asthma is still not balanced out, and for some reason I forgot one of the nastiest side effects of the medication: having the shakes. That is going to be fun during my asana practice. 

For the rest I had only a couple of "down" moments, quickly brought back to the base line though. This experiment is truly life changing. I can't even begin to think of how many times I let my fears and my emotions get the better of me during times of being ill. That's all in the past. Now is all that matters. 

And after 46 years of living, I finally get it. I finally understand the process, and this makes me SO happy! :D

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February 24, 2010

The mindful illness experiment, day 3

It's day three of my "big experiment" in dealing with illness using yoga and meditation. 

I can't even begin to sum up the differences. Last year I was constantly craving food, and slept really really bad for instance. Today I had 5 hours sleep, and I only had my normal meals. 

I have found that if I limit the time I hold my asana, I can breathe better, my chest opens, and I can focus on pranayama much easier. What also helped was treating an asana as a meditation. Breathing relaxation to painful spots, focusing only on the way my breath flows, it makes all the difference, also in the depth of the asana. Still a marvel to me that I can rest my head on my knee in Janu Sirsasana (head to knee pose). 

I am still sick, but this time only my body is sick, my emotions don't get involved, my fear doesn't get involved, all my energy goes to my healing process. I still have my bad moments, like when I have a really bad asthma attack, but soon after that my mood changes back to the basic calm and still mode. 

After all this is over, I will write an article on this, because I believe that it is good to preserve what I have learned during this process. 

article posted on Simply Blissful & Integral Yogini 

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February 22, 2010

be mind~ful while being ill

Today I realized my asthma really needed a kick in the butt, so I decided it was time to call the lung specialist about it. To make a long story slightly shorter: I am getting the same medication I had last November. Back then I had a hard time with the pills, I was constantly hungry, slept bad, and had other symptoms I really didn't like. 

I am going to make a change this time. I know I might have the same problems with the meds, but this time I am going to use asana in moderation (probably only janu sirsasana in one of the many variations), pranayama and meditation to help me through it. In stead of letting the symptoms take me for a ride, I am going to breathe through them, and I am going to take really good care of my body. A very healthy diet, healthy snacks for when the hunger pangs strike, and nice hot baths. 

I do that because I know the sick body is not the real me. The real me is the one who is quiet on the background, whispering guidance that I usually don't hear. Now I want to. Now I want to delve into the wisdom of the ancient soul that resides in this body, and I will listen. 

I will post more on this as the week progresses. 

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February 12, 2010

Why I choose to be happy

Yesterday someone said to me she wished she was happy like I seem to be. 

I couldn't help but smile, because I made the same remark to someone else, years and years ago. Somehow, without me even noticing, I became like he was to me. 

At one point in my life I realized that I have a choice to make. I can either choose to be sad and miserable, things that my physical challenges more than warranted, or I could be happy. 

I chose happy. 

It was as simple as that. 

And of course, I have sad moments. I have extremely sad moments at times. My challenges didn't get any less. But with my perpetual happy state, I get back to my base emotion easily. It also helps me overcome challenges. It helps me to be strong for my mom for instance when she calls with another sad story about my dad. 

I choose happy. 

I choose to be like Tigger, bouncing through life, and hoping to light a spark in someone to make the same choice. Then maybe one day, that person will feel the same as I do now. A sense of wonder and joy in someone wishing they were happy, like the person is. 

A perpetual circle of joy and love.

I love to be a part of it!

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February 8, 2010

Abundance ritual

This ritual has been a long time coming. It brewed in the back of my mind ever since I had two Pink coincidences. One was talking to the lovely and utterly wonderful Megan about abundance, the second was me promising to write a ritual on money and then realizing what I promised.
For some reason money and I don't speak very well together. It is because I still have a hard time realizing it is energy. Having been so low on energy for such a long time it is no wonder that I have such a streinous relationship with money.
Also a fun fact: I had a period in my life where I bought literally anything that caught my fancy. Not very expensive stuff, just getting a new hobby and then buying ten new things for it in stead of 100. It was my way to bury the pain and sadness, but the moment the newness wore off, I was right where I started out in the first place.
So there is a lot of shame attached to money.
And anger. As a child I used to be the one with money, I saved very well. In the end a lot of people came to borrow money from me, and I ended up losing a lot of it. So I learned to spend it all.
This is only the money/energy aspect of abundance I have problems accepting.
To really renew my relationship with abundance in every aspect, I need to shed all these built up notions on what abundance really is, and shape a gorgeous new place in my life.
And yes, I know abundance isn't about money, it's just an aspect of it in this physical world we live in. I see now it is all a part of the energy flow that keeps our beautiful planet in tact.
And now, the ritual.
What you need:
- a white candle
- a piece of paper
- a pen
- a tool to use to scratch in the candle
- a fire resistant bowl or something like that, or a beautiful potted plant
The ritual
- put the candle and the paper in front of you, and write down what you want to let go of in regards to abundance. What aspects do you need to redefine? Think of abundance in energy, abundance in joy, abundance in love, abundance in friendships. What do you need to let go of to lead a life of utter abundance and bliss?
- get the candle, and scratch in words that define abundance for you. What you would love to gain.
- set the candle in a safe spot and then keep your piece of paper ready to burn, or replant the potted plant with your torn up sheet in the bottom, ready to be taken in by the earth energies
- light the candle and then burn the paper, leave the candle burning, all the while keeping the words you have carved in your mind's eye.
Please share how your ritual went :)
Blessings,
Tamlyn

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February 6, 2010

A simple meditation

Sit down and close your eyes

Focus your attention on your stomach
Move your stomach on the flow of your breath

In....
and out

In... 
and out

Feel how breath flows in and out of your body
gentle
as if your body is the beach
and the breath flows like the sea when the water
is really low

Slow breaths
in...
and out

Slow water
in...
and out

Feel how strong the breath makes you
feel how it rises your stomach
no power can hold it

In...
and out

In...
and out

Your stomach warms up
feel how each gentle breath
burns away the emotions
you have stored there

in...
and out

in... 
and out

Feel the breath spread calm through your body
A smile grows on your face
Pure bliss

Stay in that feeling, and as you open your eyes
feel the energy still pulsating through you
ready to take you on a journey through a day
filled with magic and wonder

As any day should be

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